So as we all know when filling out a new job application, medical form, political form, drivers liscense test, sat, or a number of varring pieces of paperwork that tell who we are to another person we must fill out our name, gender, phone number, wether we where or where not a vetrain, whetether we where glasses or not, and then one thing that always balks me your race/ethnicity.
I do one thing ever time I run across that black place, that fill in the bubble, that definition of who I am. I put in Mutt.
I have been doing this strange turn of events since probably fourth or fifth grade on my sat. We where suppose to fill in just one bubble to tell the government who we where. I got it into my head at that time that they where trying to see if I was smarter then my black, latino, or asain classmates. Also I had to choose between being native american and white. I am native american two generations off from being able to be blood to my tribe, I have no conection with them in Manie since almost all the family on my mom's side passed away when I was very young. I just didn't like the feel that some stranger would determin who and what I was by some stupid bubble filled in with a number two pencil. So I filled in both bubbles that related to me. I continued this even up through my college carrer and changed it around sometimes filling in more bubbles, or if the had an other I wrote in Mutt. I will still do it throughout my master degrees.
I didn't come up with Mutt till I was 13 and had to go into surgery to remove a tumor from my foot. My Dad was sitting beside me helping me fill out the paperwork that may have precluded to the amputation of part of my foot. I was terrified because moments before they said I might have cancer. I filled out every question dilagntly till I came to what race/ethnicity are you. I looked up at my dad, I had been doing the bubble thing on sats but this was a hospital, so I asked him "did I have to fill it out?" he said "no, he never did and though it was stupid" so I wrote in one word that I felt discribed who I was, Mutt, just an american mutt.
I am a mix of people, a blood of opposites. Irish, Scotish, German, Russian, Pennobscot, welsh, maybe swedish and french. My family has lost so much of it's past history that we don't really know all of where we came from. I know my great grandmother was first generation born german imagrent and her family feared to speak german during the first world war. I know from my father's side we have had fighting men in the ww2, the civil war, all the way to the revolutionary war, hessians and loyal to be exsact. but I did not relate to anyone group I'm proud of my heratige but I can no more say i'm more irish then German.
So one more as I filled out my job paperwork to be hired at the Museum i filled out Mutt where I should have put my code of what ethnicity I am. The woman revuwing my paperwork stopped and looked at me and I explaned that I have done this for years and it is my one small protest to change the system as I see it.
I don't believe and have never seen color, sept when it is shoved in my face. I love my friends not because they are black, or white, or blue. I love them because they are people.
I don't believe we as a the human species can survive divided. we are not just what we look like but a complex system of rasing, beliefs, and nuances. How can all of that be confined tyo a small space, a bubble, a code? We are not black and white. We are the human species, as defined by sceince and, if you so believe, a high power.
We shouldn't scwaple over such petty difrences.
So just a simple word, Mutt. Until humans take down their divides and fully embrace eachother I will write mutt because I am proud of my mixed blood that I am no more pure then the common cur at the pound. I will write it until I am proud, trually proud, to say I am human.
So a silly protest, maybe, but it is my small one against the system of ignorance as I see it. i hope anyone that reads my paperwork my records stops and says "MUTT!?" and it makes them think.
keep fighting, because if we don't our ancestory and our protigy will loss this world to hate, ignorance, and disdain.
I do one thing ever time I run across that black place, that fill in the bubble, that definition of who I am. I put in Mutt.
I have been doing this strange turn of events since probably fourth or fifth grade on my sat. We where suppose to fill in just one bubble to tell the government who we where. I got it into my head at that time that they where trying to see if I was smarter then my black, latino, or asain classmates. Also I had to choose between being native american and white. I am native american two generations off from being able to be blood to my tribe, I have no conection with them in Manie since almost all the family on my mom's side passed away when I was very young. I just didn't like the feel that some stranger would determin who and what I was by some stupid bubble filled in with a number two pencil. So I filled in both bubbles that related to me. I continued this even up through my college carrer and changed it around sometimes filling in more bubbles, or if the had an other I wrote in Mutt. I will still do it throughout my master degrees.
I didn't come up with Mutt till I was 13 and had to go into surgery to remove a tumor from my foot. My Dad was sitting beside me helping me fill out the paperwork that may have precluded to the amputation of part of my foot. I was terrified because moments before they said I might have cancer. I filled out every question dilagntly till I came to what race/ethnicity are you. I looked up at my dad, I had been doing the bubble thing on sats but this was a hospital, so I asked him "did I have to fill it out?" he said "no, he never did and though it was stupid" so I wrote in one word that I felt discribed who I was, Mutt, just an american mutt.
I am a mix of people, a blood of opposites. Irish, Scotish, German, Russian, Pennobscot, welsh, maybe swedish and french. My family has lost so much of it's past history that we don't really know all of where we came from. I know my great grandmother was first generation born german imagrent and her family feared to speak german during the first world war. I know from my father's side we have had fighting men in the ww2, the civil war, all the way to the revolutionary war, hessians and loyal to be exsact. but I did not relate to anyone group I'm proud of my heratige but I can no more say i'm more irish then German.
So one more as I filled out my job paperwork to be hired at the Museum i filled out Mutt where I should have put my code of what ethnicity I am. The woman revuwing my paperwork stopped and looked at me and I explaned that I have done this for years and it is my one small protest to change the system as I see it.
I don't believe and have never seen color, sept when it is shoved in my face. I love my friends not because they are black, or white, or blue. I love them because they are people.
I don't believe we as a the human species can survive divided. we are not just what we look like but a complex system of rasing, beliefs, and nuances. How can all of that be confined tyo a small space, a bubble, a code? We are not black and white. We are the human species, as defined by sceince and, if you so believe, a high power.
We shouldn't scwaple over such petty difrences.
So just a simple word, Mutt. Until humans take down their divides and fully embrace eachother I will write mutt because I am proud of my mixed blood that I am no more pure then the common cur at the pound. I will write it until I am proud, trually proud, to say I am human.
So a silly protest, maybe, but it is my small one against the system of ignorance as I see it. i hope anyone that reads my paperwork my records stops and says "MUTT!?" and it makes them think.
keep fighting, because if we don't our ancestory and our protigy will loss this world to hate, ignorance, and disdain.
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